well... nth much here.. just feeling a little depressed here.. yea.. again....

 

i'm a very selfish person when comes to relationships.... or maybe it's normal? i don't know.... guess i'm just being petty or maybe, childish?? i don't know....

 

haiz... i dun wana talk at it....

 

going off for a short trip nx week with my dear chang jin...

 

and yea.. i'll be going to phuket too.... in april....

 

fine fine fine... i just dun wana talk abt it...

 

hell training will be on..... i make sure i will get back my nice figure~

yup.... just another 3 more bloody days and my 5 weeks holidays will begin.....

 

plans for my holidays will be......

 

* i need to improve and improve my skills on cooking....

* need to loose more more more weight!! haha.. but in a healthy way of coz....

* save up some $$

* sleep more

* clean up my house~

 

well.. i can't really think of anything now.. as... my brain stopped working....

 

i'm sick.... having a very bad sore throat... :(

 

3 more days of torture..... gosh!~ and i have yet to finish up my guide book~~ fuck~

 

feeling sleepy.... haiz~

 

 

i'm pretty worried abt my health right not..... haiz....

 

anyway... i did 2 last office today..... 2 person died in my ward.... one of them is my fren's grandma.... gosh... my eyes turned red when i see them crying and wait till the heart beat till it stopped ~~~~ and we started printing the strips which was sth like this * ________________________________*

all of them bursted into tears... well.. it's not a pleasent scene to be seen...that's for sure.... haiz.. but.. well... lives do end... just like.... when there is a start. there's always an end.... this applies to everything in our lives....

 

the malay lady who died... haiz.... nth much to say abt her ..... but she died quite awful leh.... her mouth was wide opened and her eyes were opened too..... her spo2 was 65% before she died.... guess.. she died of not breathing enough?? i don't know.... haiz...

 

just another 6 more days to go for my bloody attachment..... i feel pretty positive abt it.... really... i have nv liked this ward.... i speaked to my NYP lecturer just now.... regarding my prcp.... yup.. it has been confirmed.. it's 3 mths only.... yay!~and i wana go A&E for my prcp... or maybe O&G.....

 

as for myself.... i m currently feeling super unwell... i'm having angina pectoris.... well.. to make it simple... chest pain.....

i thought it would be fine by just ignoring it.. but it seems to be getting worse... or maybe i'm too fat and my veins all start to clot in my heart?? shit..... i think i sld jog more and swim more......

 

i will consider going for a medical check up if it still continues....

 

i feel really moody today.... gosh.... i some how just feel like crying....~

 

 

yup.... just 4 more mrnings and 5 more afternoons to go b4 my this posting ends and i shall enjoy my holidays to the max starting from nx week fri nite... yay!!!! but... what freaks me out now is.... my results... oh well.... i think i can make it la.. haha....

 

last sat nite, met up with the bmc ppl... haha.. was so happy to see them la.... so funny.. went to cine for super then to wine bar to sit down have a drink and talk cock... haha.., but i left a bit earlier la... coz i know... and i knew it.... haha.. i m gonna get lost while driving back home... hahaha.... and yea.. i did get lost and it took me abt an hr to get back home.. haha...

 

my dad is back from hk.... and he will be leaving soon... that's fast... haha....

 

i seriously can't rem what happened all these while as too many things had happened.... just... super forgetful la huh~ haha...

 

attachment is fun la so far so good.... just that the CI is a bit strict that's all.... hmm... but it's ok.. just 9 more days to endure... :)

 

went to shop a bit too on sat.... wana thank my v special friend of mine... :) u know who u r.. and.. yea.. thanks... i really do like the gift a lot!!! :)

 

i can't wait to go to phuket man... super wana enjoy la..... haiz...

 

anyway.... i'm kinda worried abt my little cousin... oh well... hope that she'll be fine soon... although i'm bz with my attachments... but no worries... u r always in my mind and heart :) when u feel alone.... just remember that someone far still cares for u and loves u :)

 

alrite.. shall take a nap first.... super tired!!~