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August 31 :) she looks really lovely.... i was a fan of the little mermaid when i was young :)
anyway... hell training has officially started... 15 rounds is my target...
just gotta endure....
i need to cut down 10 kg!! and i seriously mean it.....
i can't accept myself as a fat woman.... really... i wana look good...
haiz....
i can't wait to leave s'pore.... i'm just so sick of this place.. and i have so many more years to endure~
August 28 1 hr of jogging~ head myself back on track again...
1 hr of jogging is a torture....
did not have a choice... i need to lose 10kg!
i'm really overweight....
i don't want history to repeat...
don't wana be called mount fuji
don't wana be called a hippo etc etc~~~
well.. exams r seriously making me gain so much weight... really...
i hope by... hmm... 2 mths? yea.. i can cut down abt 5 kg? yea... i shall set that target!
will be having a sec class meeting on monday for dinner... well.... well well... haha... hmm... yea i will be going :)
just feel a little bit weird... i hardly talk in class.. seriously....
gonna meet up with bx on tues... dinner on wed with jq ... and i will be packing on thurs for my fri trip to langkawi....
finally.. a getaway ~
heading to china town later with my hmm... bro~... to get some stuff ... i need contact lenses too~~ i want the coloured one :)
maybe violet~
had a good night sleep last night... :) finally~~
alright.. shall update again!~
take care and ... see ya!
muack!~ Fat! well... i'm fat... :(
i need to cut down roughly abt 10kg....
gosh!!~ i'm seriously over weight! August 26 Random entry~ i love pigs.. and always have.... hehe
books r driving me a little crazy at this spot...
what to do~ just gotta endure~
dreams~
one of my dreams~ is to travel all around europe:) is that possible? yea.. if only i have the $$ :) Last one to go~! i shall start studying right after this blog entry...
just had my breakfast.. and i'm currently enjoying my cup of tea... :) i love drinking tea~
it's going to be the last and final exam in my poly life (i pray for that) haha... i seriously hate studying... gosh~
looking forward to my langkawi holidays..... cool... i love going to trips....
this coming friday i shall start jogging.... jogging 20 rounds the track in alternate days... sounds cool huh~
 anyway.... good luck to myself and yup.. shall update soon!~
take care guys~! :D August 25 thinking~
:) i have always wanted to be in love and in a really... passionate relationship when i was a little girl....
as u know.. i come from a girl school.... pri and sec..... it seems like... i have never come in touch with any opposite sex before... haha... well... all thanks to my mummy... throw me to such a lesbian school~
anyway... no one liked me when i was young... i was fat.... short... and.. a little introvert i guess... and i'm never a good talker....
things has changed along the way.... people do grow up right? haha.....
is there really true love out there?
well... i sld really go find out the ans....
yea... i don't wana blog much abt my personal life.. as.. i know.... some irritating ppl are reading my blog from time to time.. that is partly the reason.. why i've stopped blogging for ages~~
maybe i'll get a blog in wordpress soon~ :)
i hate exams~  i had nv liked exams since the day i entered pri sch... ~
my paper seriously sucked..... shitty paper... really...worst paper in my poly life... what rubbish.... just feel super fucked up now...
moderation plz~~~
i'll be going to langkawi nx weekend.... for my 21st bday... :) well.. nth special for me... and... i dun think it's sth to be happy abt.... haiz...
i feel insecure abt my future....
oh well... will not go into that....
hmm... just gonna study hard for thurs final paper... will try my best....
still feel tired after slping for 4 hrs... gosh...
attachments starts on the 28th sept... well... it's A&E department and OT.. and then.... to old ppl ward~~ prcp starts on the 7th dec... which is... orh dei ge 1 nin~ :)
i still gotta endure 2 to 3 more years of my miserable life b4 i could really get what i want.... in life~
side track a little... last sunday mrning.. met up with a person who i have no met for abt 2.5 years... he changed a lot...
was quite disappointed with what he is doing now and his life.. really.. i'm glad that.. we did not get together at the moment of time... thank god.... :) i always knew that god is watching over me and what i do :) he wants the best for me....
school life has ended... acadamicaly.... yup.... just left with clinical placements to complete.... that's fast... time flies... how i wish my 2 years can just fly like that....
yea... it's not easy to live a life .. a miserable life.... but .. i don't have a choice.... i believe.... when the time is up.... things will get much better.... i'm working on it.. :)
i believe that.. i can cope!~
July 21 what a day~fine... today is seriously not my day la.... and yes.. i m finally updating my blog.... as promised.....
soooo many things happened.... really... can't count .. and if i wana say... i seriously have no idea where to start.....
this fri.. will be having theory test... damn... super stress.. the book is as thick as bible... how u want me to read sia....
anyway.. back to today's fucked up thing... the jap girl is super... selfish la... what the fuc*? got photo taking also nv inform ppl.. and she herself dress nice nice.... in the end... addie liting n i went for lunch.. can't be bothered.... what kind of leader is this? no money send sms izzit? no $$ i give u la... wa lao... that's y i always say... *yan dou yan hai hack yan zang ga!!!!!!!!!!!!!* yes i m racist.. so what? fuck them all la.. selfish ass holes....
practiced 2 skills just now in lab.. i m super drained i tell u... super... n i can tell u that i m seriously gonna die.... thanks a lot .. julian n jane... for kinda.. like.. guided me a little... :)
well... finally.. year 3 liao... and it's alr nearing to the last few weeks of sch la... finally.... but as i promised... i will blog abt my frens... each n every one of them what i actually think of them... .. maybe the nx entry :) i m feeling hungry now... need to grab a bite... :)
julian n jane.... u will not be missed out :D June 02 Emoing~well... it's finally.. june.... i can still remember.. what happened in june last year.... :)
memories will always stay.... i dreamt of yi siu last nite.... well.. maybe.. sub consiously.. i still do miss him... :)
i asked him a few questions in the dream... i really wana know the ans very badly.... how i wish.. he will tell me face to face 1 day in the future.....
just kinda wondering.. how's he now... good? in a r/s now??...
i guess.. u have moved on long ago....
i still do drive ard ur area... hoping to bump into u..... but.. i'm not lucky enough... i know.. it's time to let go....
abt 1 more week to ai leen's wedding.. and well.. i'm the bride's maid... haha... just collected my gown this afternoon... and then rush back to class ... haiz....
i'm having very bad cramps today.... stupid menses.... haiz.... my whole face went pale.....
anyway.... i'll be rotting like nobody's business nx week after this fri..... i guess.. i'm gonna do my report writing later on and tomorrow....
Mr D is going to gym with ken tonight.. and as for me.. i just had instant noodles for dinner.... don't feel like going out at all... i'm tired... really tired... mentally and also physically....
met up with shun 2 weeks back... he's doing fine... stable with his girl and all.. glad to hear that from him....
everyone is doing well i guess.. but just me... something is missing in my life.... really..... there's just something missing....
i'm currently... lost.....
is there a map or gps to find myself back??
i feel the emptyness in me... ~
May 13 Insomnia~yea i seriously can't slp at all... also duno y... feeling super terrible... just wasting my time on bed.... haiz.... anyway.. gotta be up early for breakfast~~ no break time for today... from 8 to 12.. dun wana starve myself....
as usual.... having mood swings....
i really duno what's wrong with me..... my mind is just sooo.. messed up...
i seriously love my bed~~~ gosh.. but y can't i just slp?? ahhhhh!!!!!
stress i guess... fri will be the bloody day~~~ May 12 update~just feeling a little uncomfortable..... sometimes.. i wld rather not know some stuff....she stays with him.... almost everyday.... i have no right to be jealous or unhappy.... haiz.... what to do... it was my fault after all...
passed my practical test yesterday and i've got 1 more to go.... on friday....
for this past 1 mth.. lots of things happened... happy and unhappy stuff.... but mostly unhappy.... i've not been smiling and laughing for quite some times..... not as much as b4....
there;s just too many unhappy things happening ard me... confusing stuff... haiz....
anyway... i'll be going back to hk in june... :) finally.... i can take a break.... and relax... i seriously wana thank someone la.... and u know who u r :) giving me a chance to go back where i love and enjoy to be at~~
i think i seriously can't drive manual car la.. i lack so much confidence in it sia... too used to auto cars already.... that's really bad man~~~ :(
bro is on holidays now.... how lucky he is man.... he's at phuket.....
i went there last mth... was really a good place to enjoy... beautiful~~
i shall go slp 1st la
not feeling too well..
i need to loose weight!!!!!! haha~
April 06 well~~yea.... i'm back... finally.. after all these shits~~~~~
too much to update and therefore.... i will just sum up ba....
went bintan with cj... had fun..... did spa for 2 days... hehe... v shiok!~
going to phuket this sat~~~
did quite alright for my exam... and enjoying hard on my holidays....
just recieved a call... regarding.... yi po passed away last mth.... oh well.... was quite sudden... but... yea.... that's life....
i realised that... i feel really jealous when i know more abt ~~~~~ yea... dun feel like blogging.... but yea.... i guess u guys know what i'm talking abt...
haiz..... guess i will be going back to hk in june..... yup.. and also... i will be miss quek's bride's maid.... in june.... think it;s june 14th?? yea.. it's a sunday if i'm not wrong...
erm..... well..... nth much to blog abt also.... my life is boring~~ March 19 just feeling a little... weird and confused~well... nth much here.. just feeling a little depressed here.. yea.. again....
i'm a very selfish person when comes to relationships.... or maybe it's normal? i don't know.... guess i'm just being petty or maybe, childish?? i don't know....
haiz... i dun wana talk at it....
going off for a short trip nx week with my dear chang jin...
and yea.. i'll be going to phuket too.... in april....
fine fine fine... i just dun wana talk abt it...
hell training will be on..... i make sure i will get back my nice figure~ March 11 3 more days~yup.... just another 3 more bloody days and my 5 weeks holidays will begin.....
plans for my holidays will be......
* i need to improve and improve my skills on cooking....
* need to loose more more more weight!! haha.. but in a healthy way of coz....
* save up some $$
* sleep more
* clean up my house~
well.. i can't really think of anything now.. as... my brain stopped working....
i'm sick.... having a very bad sore throat... :(
3 more days of torture..... gosh!~ and i have yet to finish up my guide book~~ fuck~
feeling sleepy.... haiz~
March 05 Not feeling well~i'm pretty worried abt my health right not..... haiz....
anyway... i did 2 last office today..... 2 person died in my ward.... one of them is my fren's grandma.... gosh... my eyes turned red when i see them crying and wait till the heart beat till it stopped ~~~~ and we started printing the strips which was sth like this * ________________________________*
all of them bursted into tears... well.. it's not a pleasent scene to be seen...that's for sure.... haiz.. but.. well... lives do end... just like.... when there is a start. there's always an end.... this applies to everything in our lives....
the malay lady who died... haiz.... nth much to say abt her ..... but she died quite awful leh.... her mouth was wide opened and her eyes were opened too..... her spo2 was 65% before she died.... guess.. she died of not breathing enough?? i don't know.... haiz...
just another 6 more days to go for my bloody attachment..... i feel pretty positive abt it.... really... i have nv liked this ward.... i speaked to my NYP lecturer just now.... regarding my prcp.... yup.. it has been confirmed.. it's 3 mths only.... yay!~and i wana go A&E for my prcp... or maybe O&G.....
as for myself.... i m currently feeling super unwell... i'm having angina pectoris.... well.. to make it simple... chest pain.....
i thought it would be fine by just ignoring it.. but it seems to be getting worse... or maybe i'm too fat and my veins all start to clot in my heart?? shit..... i think i sld jog more and swim more......
i will consider going for a medical check up if it still continues....
i feel really moody today.... gosh.... i some how just feel like crying....~
March 02 2 more bloody weeks to go~yup.... just 4 more mrnings and 5 more afternoons to go b4 my this posting ends and i shall enjoy my holidays to the max starting from nx week fri nite... yay!!!! but... what freaks me out now is.... my results... oh well.... i think i can make it la.. haha....
last sat nite, met up with the bmc ppl... haha.. was so happy to see them la.... so funny.. went to cine for super then to wine bar to sit down have a drink and talk cock... haha.., but i left a bit earlier la... coz i know... and i knew it.... haha.. i m gonna get lost while driving back home... hahaha.... and yea.. i did get lost and it took me abt an hr to get back home.. haha...
my dad is back from hk.... and he will be leaving soon... that's fast... haha....
i seriously can't rem what happened all these while as too many things had happened.... just... super forgetful la huh~ haha...
attachment is fun la so far so good.... just that the CI is a bit strict that's all.... hmm... but it's ok.. just 9 more days to endure... :)
went to shop a bit too on sat.... wana thank my v special friend of mine... :) u know who u r.. and.. yea.. thanks... i really do like the gift a lot!!! :)
i can't wait to go to phuket man... super wana enjoy la..... haiz...
anyway.... i'm kinda worried abt my little cousin... oh well... hope that she'll be fine soon... although i'm bz with my attachments... but no worries... u r always in my mind and heart :) when u feel alone.... just remember that someone far still cares for u and loves u :)
alrite.. shall take a nap first.... super tired!!~ February 23 yo!hello~~ finally exams r over... and my 3 weeks attachment is gonna begin in abt 1 hrs time... then.. my 5 weeks of holidays...
planning to get away from s'pore for a little while... as i'm pretty sick of this place...
meeting my long old fren later for dinner :) lots to catch up....
most prob.. i'll wun be going back to hk in june.. but maybe to some where else..... yup...
i'm feeling pretty tired now.... ahhhh~~~
anyway.. back to proper blogging.. hehe... i think i bloody hell screwed up my exam... worse to the worse...sub paper lor... :(
waltz intermediate was not easy..... i had my 3rd lesson already... goshhhh.. all the turning and positioning sucks... but it looks really good... haha....
i seriously need to start saving up a little bit la... for my future...
anyway... i went steamboat 2 days ago... it was really a good place to eat.... really....... damn nice la... maybe nx time can bring my frens there man...
alrite..... shall stop blogging here.... i've nth much to blog abt~ February 05 Hi~yea... i'm back to blogging again~~~ was serious toooo bz to blog anything down...
currently my attachment is in IMH.... facing those abnormal ppl everyday makes me go crazy too~~ but well.. just another 2 more days to endure and my nightmare will be over.....
exams r just nx week... damn~~~ not enough time to study la....
currently having pimple outbreak... ahhhhh!!!!
i miss my pig head....
well.. as for june... i might not even be going back to hk due to some stuff la.... shall see and plan~~
can't wait for my 5 weeks holidays~~
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